One day, this blog will be about what it was designed for.
One day, there will be posts filled with traveling, projects, parties and more.
Today is not that day.
If I’m totally honest, that day probably won’t come for a little while. Why? Because I have a new baby, and some days I barely find the time to brush my hair, let alone do a project and create a pinterest-perfect blog post about it.
Today is about momsomnia. What is that you might ask?
I don’t know yet whether this is something every mom goes through or not, but this is one of the most bittersweet moments yet in motherhood for me. You might think I’m crazy, how could insomnia be bittersweet? Well just stick with me.
The potential for more sleep in the future. The reason I’m awake right now is because my baby USUALLY is too, but with all the efforts we’ve been putting into getting him to sleep longer periods in his own bed hopefully that is in the past. I have been dreaming of a good nights sleep since he was born, there are nights I would have paid ridiculous amounts just to be able to sleep for an uninterrupted hour.
My baby is growing up! It’s inevitable, it is after all what we worked for, but lying awake at midnight without a baby in my arms makes me miss him. It’s all I can do not to go into his room, scoop him up in my arms and just hold him while I memorize his little sleeping face. I mean, look at him! Can you blame me?
So tonight, I celebrate the future nights of good sleep, the success of our efforts and my little man’s development, but when he wakes up, whether it be in 5 minutes or an hour, I’ll be grateful for one more chance to snuggle him in my arms as he falls asleep.
Because I know these days are numbered.
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